Bobbi Ann Johnson Holmes

When I realized I was a real author…

It’s been ten days since I released The Ghost and Christmas Magic, the 37th book in my Haunting Danielle series. It is also the fourth Christmas themed book in the series. I am happy to report, thus far it has been well received by my readers. 

When I first started the Haunting Danielle series I wrote four books a year. That wasn’t something I planned in the beginning. As I have mentioned in previous blog posts, I never intended for the series to go on this long, it just sort of happened. Readers asked for more books, I had story ideas, and I enjoyed writing the books—so I wrote.

 I did learn early on that pre-orders were an effective marketing strategy, so I started putting the eBook formats on pre-order at Amazon, and then later at other venues. Back then, Amazon offered a limited window for pre-orders, so basically, I needed to put out a book every 90 days if I wanted to utilize the pre-order at Amazon—which brought me to four books a year.

After Amazon removed the maximum 90 day preorder, I began rethinking the four books a year. While I love writing, life is short and I am getting older—much older—so I felt it was best to maybe write three books a year—then two. Writing two books a year gives me more time to spend with family and friends, in the garden, or exploring new recipes. This past summer my husband and I took a car trip down the coast, visiting with my daughter and grandchildren, my sister and her family, and two of our closest friends, Carolyn and Dave. Then in October, we spent some time on the Oregon coast with our son and daughter-in-law, at an Airbnb.   

Anyway, as to now….

I don’t intend to start my next Haunting Danielle book for a couple of months. So, what are my plans? Currently, we’re in the rainy season up here in Oregon. With the shorter days (sun currently setting by 4:30 p.m.) and wet roads, we won’t be out exploring.

Do I intend to winterize my greenhouse? That’s something I should have done before my poor basil plant (which had been thriving in the greenhouse) would have benefited from, since it has since been attacked by mold (too damp obviously) and I must throw the poor thing in the compost pile.

Will I spend time in the kitchen figuring out how Oma Head (whose divinity inspired Marie’s) made such amazing divinity?

Nope, it seems I am starting a new book—inspired by my recent 71st birthday. Had you asked me a month ago if I would be starting a new book during my Haunting Danielle writing hiatus I would have thought that a silly question. But silly question or not, it is exactly what I am doing.

I’m writing the book more for myself—more so than my previous books. I already have a title—one that is not chiseled in stone and may change. The title? An Author’s Journey.

The catalyst behind this manuscript: turning seventy-one along with countless Indi-author TikTok videos I’ve consumed in the last few years.  Let me explain…

Self-publishing has been around for years. Notable authors such as Mark Twain and John Grishman started with self-publishing. I even self-published Where the Road End’s, Havasu Palms, Recipes and Remembrances, thirty years ago. 

Despite some of those notable authors I mentioned, self-publishing has typically taken on a negative connotation. Those weren’t real authors. Many self-published authors used what we call vanity publishers, publishers who charge the author for things like printing, editing and cover design, things a trade publisher typically pays for.

Back when I was in real estate my broker would sometimes mention I was an author when introducing me, which always made me uncomfortable, leaving me feeling like an imposter. I had written Where the Road End’s, Havasu Palms, Recipes and Remembrances for specific reasons, and one of them was not to be able to tell people I was an author, because quite frankly, I didn’t see myself as one back then.

Now fast forward to the first decade of the twenty-first century and Amazon’s launch of Kindle Direct Publishing (KDP), a platform giving writers an easy way to self-publish. eBooks readers had been out a few years and were starting to get popular. They also needed more content.

KDP gave writers a way to not just side-step traditional publishers, but to reach readers in a way self-published authors had never been able to do before. And it was free. 

Self-publishing was still seen negatively—yet with successes of new Indi-authors, that perception began to change. While come still see self-publishing negatively, the perception of self-publishing has drastically shifted since the advent of eBook readers.  

Now, back to the catalyst behind my current manuscript. I self-published my first book on KDP around fourteen years ago.  When I watch videos about indie authors, most of whom started their author’s journey within the same fourteen year timespan, the general opinion is that very few people can ever make a living from writing.

At first, I disagreed with this contention. I have a number of author friends who do support themselves primarily from their author income, including myself. I wondered why some of the authors who had been doing this for as long as me weren’t as far along on the game board, so to speak. Had I just been extremely lucky? 

Then, right around my recent birthday, as I was processing the fact I was about to turn seventy-freaking-one, reality smacked me.  We hadn’t started at the same time—all those talented and much younger authors who I had seen on TikTok. Sure, I might have uploaded my first manuscript to KDP within a few years as them, the fact was, I’d started my author journey decades earlier. 

Twenty-four years ago, when my broker was telling people I was an author, and I was thinking No, I’m not, I had forgotten about the manuscript sitting in my drawer (that would later be published, made into a book series, and its audiobook rights bought by Dreamscape Media); I had also forgotten about the documentary I wrote and produced my senior year of college, that was shown through the Santa Ana school district public television station; I had forgotten about the finished screen play sitting in my garage that I wrote for my film writing class, during my third year of college; I had also forgotten about the first book I wrote during the summer when I was fourteen. Yet the biggest forget was probably Mountain/Hi-Desert Guide, the monthly community magazine I had published in the 1980s, along with Wrightwood Magazine.

My point being, I had been doing this authoring stuff for my entire life. It wasn’t just the last fourteen years; it’s been almost sixty years.  While I haven’t reached the fame as some authors, that’s okay. It’s been a fulfilling journey, and I am exactly where I want to be in life. How many people can say they have achieved their childhood dream?

An Author’s Journey is part letter to aspiring authors and part memoir to my family. I’ll be writing it between book 37 and 38 in my Haunting Danielle series and may have to put it on pause and return to it after I write and publish book 38.  Will anyone read it? Will anyone want to read it? I don’t know, but to be honest, either way is okay as I’m primarily writing it for myself. 

Christmas Memories

I turned seventy-one less than two weeks ago. My age and current reflections on the Christmas season influenced the writing of The Ghost and Christmas Magic. I’ve been thinking a lot about the elders in my life who no longer join us around the Christmas tree. Or maybe they are in spirit; I just can’t see them.

When writing The Ghost and Christmas Magic, I thought a lot about family Christmas traditions. In truth, it was a highly personal reflection. Growing up, my Christmas stocking was one of my favorite traditions.

It wasn’t about getting stuff; it was about the love Mom poured into the stocking stuffers. Gift giving was Mom’s love language. She would wrap each tiny stocking gift in Christmas wrapping paper. And every Christmas as my sister and I would eagerly open our stockings, Dad would remind us how he just got oranges and walnuts in his stocking when he was a little boy, and how he had to wait until after Christmas dinner to open gifts. Oh, it wasn’t said in bitterness, but playful teasing—however, it was all true.

On our first Christmas at Havasu Palms, I had just turned fourteen, and my sister was eighteen. Our previous Christmases had been extravagant, with an abundance of gifts—but that year my parents had poured all their money into the new business venture, they had no extra cash, and we understood instead of a mountain of gifts that Christmas, my sister and I could each ask for one thing we wanted. I believe my sister asked for a makeup mirror, and I asked for a sewing box.

That year, my sister’s and my stockings proved to be the most memorable. We were living out in the middle of nowhere—literally. There was nowhere for Mom to go Christmas shopping for stocking stuffers, and Internet shopping was not a thing. And we didn’t even have a real telephone—only an unreliable mobile phone in Dad’s truck, which wasn’t something you could use for catalogue shopping.

Despite the shopping challenge, our stockings were stuffed with tiny, wrapped packages, as they had been for all our previous Christmases. Upon unwrapping the stocking stuffers, we soon discovered where Mom had gone Christmas shopping—Havasu Palms’s little store (I wrote about that store and posted a picture in the previous blog post).

My sister and I found it utterly hilarious. Mom had wrapped candy bars, packets of gum, and cheesy Havasu Palms souvenirs the previous owners of Havasu Palms had stocked in the store. One was a little hula girl that both my sister and I wish we still had. There was also a little metal tin of pain medication (I remember Midol, my sis remembers Bufferin) in each of our stockings—but instead of the pills, they each contained a neatly folded five-dollar bill.

My sister and I agree that the stockings from Christmas 1968 were our favorites, which proves, if gift-giving is your love language, it doesn’t mean it has to cost a lot of money.

This Christmas will be a quiet one for my husband and me. It will be my second Christmas without my mom. It will be over thirty Christmases without my dad. I know some people complain about how the mental load of preparing for Christmas falls on the mother—while the men in the family just show up. But that was not true for my parents or my marriage. And I don’t think that is the case in the marriages of my daughter and son.

My dad was like a big, excited kid at Christmas. I remember him painting Christmas murals on the windows of our first Covina house. (Dad was artistic, like my daughter.) He made his homemade fudge and popcorn during the holidays, oyster stew on Christmas Eve, eggs benedict on Christmas morning, and prepared the turkey and stuffing for Christmas dinner. He and Mom worked side by side in the kitchen. And Dad was usually the one to take my sister and me to buy the Christmas tree.

While Mom was the primary gift shopper, every year Dad would pick out something special for my sister and me—something just from him. His gift for Mom was always last minute and extravagant.

I know our adult children often roll their eyes when we tell stories and reminisce about days gone by. They see it as us living in the past, and they find it especially annoying that we often repeat the same stories.

But the truth is, it’s not about living in the past—it’s about embracing the rich memories of our life, which is especially comforting as we look down the road and understand this journey of ours is coming to its final mile. That doesn’t have to be a sad thing—it’s not if the journey was filled with adventure, memorable experiences, and people we love, even if those people are no longer with us. 

My first job…

One thing that fascinates me about social media is the fixation on generational stereotypes. I can’t count the number of videos about GenX I’ve watched portraying them as the unsupervised generation—sent out into the world without a cellphone and bottle of water, allowed to stay out until the streetlights came on, while drinking water from the hose spigot, and hustling to get jobs to make money. 

Whenever I hear the boasting of the rough and tumble GenXers, it makes me giggle, because I think about my own childhood. While I didn’t walk six miles through the snow to get to school like my grandparents might have boasted, I did drive myself six miles across the lake each day to get to school—from the age of fourteen to seventeen—in a leaky boat I had to bail out each morning, and once started to sink on the way home. It had no windshield, which made winter traveling especially cold. I had no cell phone—heck, my family didn’t even have a landline. They had an unreliable mobile phone in their truck, with multiple party lines.  And if I didn’t make it to school in the morning, they wouldn’t know until I failed to return home that night.

One trend for some GenX videos is to ask that generation to share the age they were when they got their first job—and what that job was. Those videos got me to thinking about my first job, after all, I am a boomer and isn’t it all about us? LOL. But before I tell you about my job—let me set the scene.

For my first thirteen years I lived with my family of four in Covina, California, a suburb in Southern California. Back then, it was a predominately white community. Residents tended to live in housing tracts —where all the houses were similar in floorplan and built by the same builder—think Leave it to Beaver neighborhoods.  Some lived in apartments—and other lived in custom homes, the latter being considered the more upper class of the suburb.

My father was a general contractor, and the two homes we lived in during our years in Covina were custom homes, both designed and built by him, and located on large lots in what was considered one of the more exclusive areas of Covina. My older sister drove a MGB sports car. Our parents said someday we could get a horse.

But then Dad had a crazy dream, and Mom, my sister and me went along with him. My parents became the major shareholders—and managing partners—of Havasu Palms, a resort aka park located on Lake Havasu. 

My sister’s MGB was sold, we never got the horse, and we all moved from our beautiful Covina home into a ten-wide travel trailer (no, it was not a mobile home) at Havasu Palms. Our Covina house was eventually sold, and Mom, now no longer a stay-at-home-mom, worked alongside my father to build his dream.

The park was initially located on government lease land and comprised of 27 travel trailer sites, a campground, boat docks, primitive store and marina. The lease land was located on 4 ¼ miles of shoreline on the California side of Lake Havasu and was located twelve miles north of Parker Dam, California—with the only access road into the park being a dirt road that wound through washes and was vulnerable to flash floods. It was six miles south—by water—from Lake Havasu City, Arizona.

There were no phone lines into the park—so my teen years were spent without a landline OR cellphone. At first there was no television, but after Dad put up an antenna, we got three stations from Lake Havasu City. Three stations—ABC, CBS, and NBC. 

My parents were busy implementing Dad’s dream to develop the resort, which meant they couldn’t spend all their time working at the park’s little store/marina.  In the early years, that task fell on my older sister and me.

I was thirteen when I first started working at Havasu Palms’s store. I worked weekends, and summers, until my last year of college. The year between my junior and senior year of college, my mother told me I could take the summer off—something I have always been eternally grateful for. 

This may surprise you, but it was totally legal for me to sell beer at the store when I was thirteen. If it was not opened, I could sell it.  I worked primarily alone at the store—no supervision. There was no bathroom, so if I needed to use the bathroom, I had to lock up the gas pumps and store, walk up the hill to our trailer, which was located on the future site of the Road’s End Restaurant. 

The store building included three sections, with the icehouse on the end near the road. Sandwiched between the actual store and icehouse was the bait room with the minnow and waterdog tanks. The primitive building was made from recycled material, with a tin roof. The store was cooled by a rusty swamp cooler. And considering Havasu heat, swamp coolers are useless in the dead of summer. Fortunately, there was a large tamarisk tree helping to shade the store, and Havasu Palms temperatures tended to be about ten degrees cooler than across the lake, at Lake Havasu City. There was also a large rock patio in front of the building where people gathered to visit. 

What were my duties? I rang up sales on the cash register in the store. The store offered bait, ice, gas, propane, beer, soda, water, sundries items, candy, ice cream, cigarettes, some frozen meat, and the type of groceries you might find at a gas station store.  

 We didn’t have fancy registers back then, so I learned to count back change the first week I worked the store. I pumped gas at the gas docks and on the road. I would sometimes go into the icehouse and cut 100 pound blocks of ice into four 25 pound blocks.  I would scoop up minnows and waterdogs for fishermen and dump out the nightcrawlers and red worms into a metal container, to make sure they were still alive before selling, and then dump the worms back into their original containers. We rented out fishing boats with little engines that you had to pull start, so I would have to show the renters how to use the boats.

I sold fishing licenses, stocked the store, and played store janitor. One thing my dad didn’t have me do—I didn’t fill propane tanks for our tenants. 

Because of the Havasu heat, during the summer my sister and I often worked in our bikinis. When we got hot, we would jump in the lake off the docks and cool off. Because of the heat, we would be dry within minutes of getting out of the water.  When working the cash register, I’d typically throw on a large T-shirt or summer shift over my bikini.

If it was a holiday weekend, the store could be super busy, and that would usually require more than one person working and hiring extra people to work the gas docks. But on other days during the summer, we could go for hours without a customer. On those slower days, after getting the store cleaned and stocking the shelves, we’d find other things to do. Sometimes I would read a book, or float around by the docks in an innertube. One summer, I wrote my first book.

I was fourteen that summer between my freshman and sophomore year of high school; I took my old manual Royal typewriter down to the store, and when not waiting on a customer, I worked on my book. I finished it that summer. It was just under 100 typed pages. It’s title, The Privileged Ones.

Early on, my father found an old wooden juke box in one of the outbuildings. He brought it to the store and set it up on the porch. My sister and I loaded it with all our 45s (records). We kept any money it made, but it rarely made any, because we would open the back of the juke box, flip all the levers, and play all the songs.

I remember one summer, one of my friends and I learned how to knit.   It must have been a crazy sight to some random customers who just happened off the lake and found a couple of teenage girls wearing bikinis and knitting behind the store counter.

Tenants of Havasu Palms didn’t live at the park fulltime back then; it was their vacation spot. But I became friends with our tenants’ kids, who were about my same age, and we’d hang out together in the summer or on weekends. Some of them, like Tim Loyd, Mike Russum, and Gary Morris, worked for the park at various times over the years. Mike used to hang out at the store with us and taught me how to play the guitar. Well, I learned a few songs, at least, like Puff the Magic Dragon. Tim was like a brother to me, and Gary introduced me to my husband and was the best man at our wedding.

It was a great first job, with lots of adventures and meeting new people. But sometimes I’d bitch and want to go on strike.  If memory serves me, I think I made $1 an hour. But I could have all the candy and ice cream bars I wanted.  

(Photo: Havasu Palms store)